Aha Moment

I've been having more thoughts about how to work with my brain. I've been thinking lately about figuring out the why behind things for other scenarios. It's mostly involved other people and other people's lives. I had an 'aha' moment a few days ago when I realized that I need to apply that to my own life. I need to figure out why I do what I do. I'm hoping that will help me find solutions and strategies to make my life better. I would love to actually get things done and feel like I've accomplished something. I think I would feel better about myself and be able to share a better version of myself with others.

Figuring It Out

I was getting ready for the day wondering why I wasn't quite able to get things done. I was feeling like something was wrong with my brain...again. I have always struggled with accomplishing things, being productive, and procrastinating. I was wishing my brain worked differently. It was a moment of questioning why others are able to be productive and move through the tasks of their day. Questioning why I'm not able to do that. I can't seem to get a handle on the 'to do' list...right now I'm not even managing regular routines very well. As I was thinking all of this - a thought came to my head. It was a very clear, "There's nothing wrong with your brain. You just need to figure out how to use it.". I think most people might be offended if they were told they needed to figure out how to use their brain. It might be taken as a not so subtle hint that they weren't using their brain at all. For me, it made sense. It gave me some hope. I was being told that I am capable and just need to figure out strategies that work best for me. There is nothing wrong with my brain. It just doesn't work the same as those I see around me accomplishing their daily tasks, their annual goals, and their 'bucket lists'. Truthfully, most of the time I'm just trying to make it through the day. I don't have annual goals or a bucket list written down. I have thoughts about what I'd like to have happen - but, not really sure what to do with them as I make my clumsy attempt to make it to the end of the day. So, my new thing is going to be figuring out how my brain works and what strategies will work for me to conquer the world.

Moving Forward

I need to get my act together and figure out how to make being productive work on a daily basis. I have in my mind something like this: "Someday Today!". I need to make an honest effort to just get something done each day. Something is better than nothing. There's too much to do. I also feel as if I could be more energized and productive if something was actually getting done. I think that's how it's supposed to work - the more you accomplish the more you feel like accomplishing. Anyway. It needs to happen.

Productivity

I need to figure out a way to be more productive. There are so many things that need to get done and so many more things that I'd like to do that I just can't understand why I feel like I'm not able to accomplish things. The problem is in the days when I have time to be flexible with...to work with so to speak. I don't know if I ever learned how to structure my time or what. But, I need to figure something out in order to accomplish a few things and feel like I am capable of accomplishing something. I've heard the rumor/theory that if you accomplish a few things you start feeling 'accomplished'. You begin to have the confidence it takes to finish the next project or task. I'm not sure how to make that work for me. I've never learned it and still haven't figured it out. Maybe that journey is more of what this blog is about...how to actually accomplish - no matter how small.